Nobis Pacem

There must be more to the story of love, lust and desire. This is the voice of the subjected, the imposed upon, the seemingly docile. And the strong, the confident, the powerful.

We are dominant, submissive and hovering between.

There are two of us, but a third may visit from time to time. A fourth provides gentle prodding, when we are stuck.

Enjoy. We shall.

A note on the color scheme: the red background  is the color of our blood, as it pulses in our temples. The clouds reflect our tear-stained souls,  tinged with the subtle blue of our chilled lips.

Writing is an erratic process.

But so is life.

~Liras

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Things about Liras (yes, you care)

1. I am hopelessly in love with myself. Keeps me out of trouble.

2. That said, a little trouble is worth the…trouble.

3. I do not need to know what you look like, not unless we are really, really going to be come friends(rare). Your words are more than enough.

4. That said, I eat with my ears and eyes. Thus, a man has to appeal to me in both mind and body, for me to get aroused. Elizavetta knows what I mean.

5. I am self-directed. Slightly odd. Full of surprises.

6. That said, you must know I have a thin prudish streak running through me

7. I like to share things. I give because I like to, not to impress.

8. I do not like selfish, greedy, grasping people. No matter how hot they are.

9. I get bored with sex acts. What is the motivation, what is the need one is trying to satisfy? I am not holy  by far but bodies are special.

10. That said, I am friends with sluts, tramps and hookers. They are special, for they are acting with purpose. Really, ask one.

11. Sex for me is a mental state, no matter when the flesh gets involved. Even if one is horny, lusting,  or enthralled, it is a matter of the lobes connecting.

12. I have not had as much sex as I could have by at least 1/4. See above.

13. That said, maybe I just not have met the true sex god of my slumbering unconscious, who will make me ravenous and crazed.

14. Nah. My entire family is pretty ‘cold-natured’. Must be my stubbornness.

15. The best compliment I received from  a friend was that I have a secret life she knows nothing about. She is right.

16. That said, know that I like secrets. The more I like a guy, the less everyone will know about him. Quirk of mine.

17. I am not submissive. I can play one for a minute but that is about all.

18. That said, know that dominance does not power me along either.

19. I like to tease and taunt, and to be teased, taunted.

20. But only for so long. Eventually, the dam must be broken.Then re-built.

21. I have only been dumped 2.5 times. Heart hurt once.

22. And everyone of the offenders came back to me.

23. I can handle most anything but death. That has changed me. Forever.

24. My two best male buddies are clergymen. I trust them with my life.

25. My best girlfriend is the executor of my estate–I am leaving it all to her. So, she had better outlive me, so she can get the insurance.

26. I am prone to crushes. Deep, painful ones, at that.

27. That said, my crushes have no fucking idea of it. None.

27.a Don’t assume you know my crushes. You do not. Trust me. They are regular people that do not write, sing or illuminate the human condition.

27. If I were a sadist, I would want to be like Daemon. But minus the passion.

28. If I were a wife, I would like to be one such as Swiss Mrs. But no cats.

29. If I were a man, I would want to be one in the mode of Sinner.

30. I am not a man, no matter what the exciting prolific Provocateur might think, I sent him a picture, so I hopes he believes me.

31. If I were lusty, it would be in the manner of Gracie. But w/2 husbands.

32. If I happened to be poetic and enticingly cruel, I could be like D’ jaevle.

33. If I were a true genius with a libido, I would be just like O

34. If I were sexually multitastic, I would be like  VnImp.

35. If  I could be sweet and gentle and graceful, I would be like  Neeraja .

36. If I were a gorgeous gay male exquisite writer, I would be just like CHB.

37. But I am me. Cool. Yes.

38. Some like me, some don’t. No matter, either way.

39. I do not like to shop. Not unless I am buying a gift.Then let’s go and stay.

40. I have to get into your headspace, to read your work regularly. Life is too short to fight myself, trying futilely to get what you are saying.

41. I have about 10-15 blogs that I read on a regular basis. Yes, I lurk.

42. I like men who may have thoughts in common but lead very very different lives than my own.

43. I love Bender and would become a girl robot, to get a piece.

44, Animale is my favorite Muppet, Beaker the runner-up.

45. Oscar and The Count could have me in a 3-way on their street & film it.

46. I write a lot, most not here or where it can be read.

47. I like to dance. I can go without TV but not music and radio.

48. I can only be friends with people that respect other humans. I do not do well with racists, sexists and the other ‘ists’. Fuckers, the lot.

49. No matter what you think you know of me, there is always more.

50. My relationships fall into disuse because I won’t lie to myself.

51. That is okay. If I can’t be true to my self, I need to die.

52. I used to be thin, when I needed to be. It was not ‘better’.  I am not now.

53. Which has lead me to meet some of the most fascinating men on 3 of the continents. Who knew that gaining T & A would be so fruitful?

54. I once dated a man who was still in love with another woman. Ugh.

55. I like to write from other perspectives. Much harder than it seems, I discovered. It requires turning one’s self inside out.

56. I try not to use sex toys. I do not want risk replacing human-induced orgasms and stimulation.  I better not push my good luck.

57. The other writers would not chime in about themselves.  Shy, I guess.

58. “You” is him. Or he. Depends on which man I am thinking of.

59. But “You” is real. Even if he remains a secret. See # 16.

60. I hope that what I feel, you can embrace through my words, as well.

61. I have trouble sleeping when it is warm. I prefer cool brisk weather.

62. I do not like cheating men. Not because they are wrong but because I am iffy on secrets and sharing. I do not want anyone else’s man, for similar models came out of the factory on the same day.

62 a. Don’t believe me? Take a look around, replicas are plentiful.

63 b. I do not desire women, so I am not affected if they cheat or have lovers. Yes, I double have a few double standards.

63. Jealousy is a sin and a horrid flaw. I have been spared.

64. Dusk and twilight are the sexiest times of day for me.

65. I wished for more women friends but I decided to rescind that. as I got older.  To my eternal chagrin, I do not have much in common with most women besides gender. Sucks greatly.

66. I try to get my posts finished in 5 minutes or less. I often wake up in the middle of the night to compress a dream or memory into a small tasty package.